today.

was long, but there were some highlights.

ravs in broth being one of them. whenever i eat something in broth, i feel as though i’m stuck in the early 1900’s in mother russia. i’m sure you feel the same way.

also, i saw a man with a umbrella hat.

do people realize just how silly they look in these things???

oh well.

sometimes, like now, i really miss morningstar, i miss the community and comradary of it all. at any given time there was someone there to pray with you about things, or to share a word from God. mostly i miss the worship though.

i miss giving myself in full abandonment to God. i miss being in His arms. i mean, sure i can get that here, but it was just so much easier there. there wasn’t a struggle at all. we would just be able to drift into the presense of God, and here, it’s like banging my head against a wall, i don’t feel like i’m making hedgeway.

and i miss Him, i miss His presense, i miss soaking in Him, and just releshing in My god and who He is.

i miss having a knowledge so deep of who He is, and His love for me.

I guess, it is what i make it. i mean, instead of writing all of this, i could be running to him right now.

but i’m not.

i’m just here, complaining about not being with him.

let’s do something about that.