happy

mother’s day.

unfortuntately, i’ve never been so tired in my life.

i yawn for like, 5 hours straight.

i tell ‘em no with my hands.

so my sister is having another boy,  that’ll make the grand total of two so far.  and this time i’ll be around when it’s born.  i cannot wait.  seriously.

a new child with new lights in it’s eyes.

i’ve been thinking alot lately.  and i feel like the light that used to be in my eyes is dwindling,   my drams and passions just seem so miniscule,  the pper that used to be so close to me, is now a million miles  away.

bah.

oh well, whatever i’m saying relaly has no creedeence at all, i know my life is going to be one of exciting times.

i know my life will jump and leap and soar.

but only as i do.

i don’t even really listen to anything i say.

you know i truly wish i could be hanging around here. soon i will dissapear.

it’s when i finally think that’s something’s over that i realzie it’s barely even bgeun.

i thought i had lost my adoration of you, but that’s never really been the case.

you’re still in my heart, and i don’t know how to get rid of you.

when we parted i never thought i would see you again, but you still haunt me.

i really wish you were out of my head out of my heart, because we’re too complex to mesh,  i really wish i had never felt anything towards you at all,

but that’s too late.

so i swing and i sway and grasp at straws

and i used to think that sounds were something

i used to think we were brave and bold an d beautiful and nothing was going to hurt us,

but that’s never been the case

we were always otut to get each other, to ruin each other’s mornings nights, days weekends, months years.  you’ve broken me over and over again, and yet i still run to you.

i will never forget you, but god, i wish i could.

how could we know?

johnny headstrong went for his morning constitution, and decided.

life isn’t worth living i snotted out a belching grabble.

conceived in a bathtub

4 tiered and nowhere to go

between destinies and between a rock that i’ve put in front of my own eye.

shame shame shame love

why did you run from me?  why did you smash everything on yhour way out

as incense leaks out of all of my pours.

the during and meanings and afters and befores are all gone,

it’s time to slink into your seat and foreget everything, it’s time to pick up all the dandelions and uproot them.

listen to what i say, and listen to what i mean,

you’ve been giving it all away for free, you’ve been teetering at an end, as starry starry nite makes a man out of view, and your dreams of tugboats and anchors are all down the drain,

oh pishposh oh prettentious fodder,

your realities are easily feasible, you are just shamed you are just broken,

you are just a shell of what you used to be.

or so you think.

it was all in your mind, it was all in pretend places, which you hid away, which you hid from the mind of a one eye, staring into your puked up partied out soul.

and all the angels above and all the demons below are bellowing at you to stop.

because the very sounds escaping from your breath are the ones killing them.

i am definitely not a morning person.

anytime when i have to wake up is the worst time of the day.

it makes me want to cry just thinking about it.

well, not really.

but pretty much.

in any rate, i am here at my place of emplyment  right now, enjoying some dreadfully slow wifi, and i’m quite sure it’s the man over there who’s making it this slow, but oh well.

as i said, here i am, awaiting the day,

awaiting for what’s to come next.

well, realistically, i know what’s to come next, i go to church and sings songs of worship, i get hungry, and leave church, haha.  and i go to work at 1.

what changes?  tomorrow i have a job interview at Office Max! as an account manager.

oh God, i hope i get this, cause i need it so bad.

in another note, the new bright eyes is freaking beautiful, honestly, can Conor Oberst make a terrible album? i think not.

alrite, i am gone.

good morning, hospital.

you are a baby.  i have raised you,  i watched you explode from the womb, i made you part of my life,  and i heard all of your excuses from that point on.  i heard everything you said,  and it seemed short it seemed inconsistent,  it seemed to fall away, but that wasn’t the case at all. it was all part of a master plan it was all part of a mixture of jargon,

everything you have in this reality is somewhere else, all your perfect bodies, and all your fake eyelashes are in the seams of heaven.   all the beautiful dawns and all the roofs that have fallen away.

YOU ARE DESTINY don’t forget it, you are giant don’t let it go,

you have messed up, you have fallen down, you have been beaten up, and scorned, but nothing has changed,  nothing will ever change.

everything is constant, everything falls apart, everything is changing, everything shows it’s heart.

funerals and the ghost of future.

FRANK?!

HOW DARE YOU?!!!

no.

i went to a funeral and i started a new job today.

and i am dreadfully deadfully tired.

also, i fought the new green goblin.

yeah, i took him out EASY
WA-SMACK.

k.

bye.

hey.

if you have a fucking problem with me, say it to my face, i’m sick of all this behind the scenes bullshit, and you not even looking at me to say something.

i’ll be so glad to never see you again.

BYE.

spider-sense, tingling!

so walking today i had an amazing experience,
my spider-powers have finally started to develop.
i knew when i was bit by that spider back in high school one day, ONE DAY i was going to get spider-powers, and today was that day.
anyways, as i was walking down the street, my brain started to get all fuzzy, and i thought, “something’s wrong i have to get out of the road” so i quickly hopped out of the road unto the curb
and lo and behold, OUT OF NOWHERE a car comes speeding by.
the thing would’ve clipped me for sure.
FINALLY
I HAVE SPIDER-SENSE!!!!